Exhausted

I barely had 3 hours of sleep today, after watching England drew haplessly 2-2 against a weakened Czech side. Besides that, I couldn't sleep at all. Still having some after effects of the workshop, and God, I still miss her deeply, still can't get her off my mind. I was driving the van whole day today as our driver was on urgent leave. My room's in such a mess, clothes everywhere, both clean and dirty. My bed's not tidy at all, my table has rubbish everywhere. This is so unlike me. What is it with me? is it because of her? It is isn't it? Stewart, wake up, you and her are an impossible thing. Was speaking to one of my companions at BRATs on MSN at night, Ian, even he noticed something was going on between me and her. He said whatever decision I made, I should not regret it later. I live in Klang, she lives in Kajang. She's leaving for HK soon, I can't bear the sight of seeing her leave. I'm just too in love with her already, thats why its so hard to let it down. Should I go ahead and still try to hit her up, or should I just blow my brains out so I can put this matter to bed for good? Samantha, Samantha, getting to know you was one of the best things that ever happened to me. You're like a character that just sprang to life, flawless you are. At the same time, it feels like its my biggest regret of all time. Divine intervention perhaps? It works sometimes. Dad, if you're listening up there, I have this serious crush on this girl I knew several days ago. What should I do, what should I do? Its midnight now, I better go get some sleep because its gonna be another long day ahead of me, and I wish to dream of her while I sleep. genie, could you grant my wish?