A cloudy day to reflect my sickening emotions, on the longest night of my life, I found myself in the most precarious position of talking to her.. It all started off well, until she asked me had I given up on us, then i just let it all out to her, being honest and all about how i felt, then all of a sudden she gave me her blog, I was surprised at that, because I never knew she had a blog, and I gave her mine.. I read hers, and she read mine as well I guess.. We were silent for 20mins on MSN, I was just waitng for her to respond to me, and finally she did. She asked me what was going on in my mind, I just responded saying whatever was in my blog is what I was thinking at the moment.. I asked her the same thing, she too said whatever was in her blog, it was what she was thinking too..
I read hers, and soon I understood that she went through a lot just to get where she is now. For a while, I thought she was selfish, and me just being foolish at pursuing this lost cause. I soon realised there was more there is to it. She had 4 posts so far, a relatively newcomer in the world of blogging. The reason why her blog's URL wasn't in her Facebook profile was because she never wanted others to see it, and I was glad that she shared it with me. She went through a lot to be where she is now, she cut her Form 6 life after 2 months into it, and went on to pursue her dream course of mass communication, at SEGI college in Subang Jaya, so near to my old house in USJ. She had to be separated from her friends and family back in Ipoh, and most of all, she had to go through a few conflicts with her dad just to get to where she was now. Now, all of that commands respect and I saluted her for her bravery in making such tough choices and decisions. If it was me, I'm not too sure if I had such courage and bravery to do do, and she deserved my respect..
I like her a lot because of that, because of what she stands for, her courage to make such decisions. If I were in her shoes, I doubt if I even had the ba**s to even consider doing such a thing, I bet I'd even be more homesick than her.. I respect her decision, but I'd just wait and see things to unfold itself. In the mean time, I'll just left fate decide its next course of action.. There's just so much I can say about her, I bet this blog space ain't enough to write it all down.. All I know she's this fantastically amazing girl, whom I know, isn't too keen on me, yet. I hope I used the word "yet" here correctly, sigh, all I can do now is not rush things and see how things go.. What can I say? My luck, being at the wrong place at the wrong time, but absolutely without any regrets knowing her whatsoever..
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