Friday morning 'bliss'

Friday October 3 2008
Sunny

Can't believe what a morning I just had. Was supposed to accompany my mum to see my brother's school principal, because he had been temporarily suspended from school, Balestier Hill Secondary School, due to certain incidents, fighting, smoking. The worst part was the fighting part, 3 times he was caught trying beat up this guy from Sec 5, all because he was a slow learner at MPCC, some police cadet thingy. And because of him, Duncan and his group of friends always had to take the stick from his mistakes, that was his reason for beating him up
We were there, the principal and the disciplinary teacher was there talking to us. The principal was a lady in her 50s, and she was extra fierce. She kept raising her voice, implicating my brother over and over again. I was there listening to my mum, and my mum was doing some explanation to her. For some reason I just stood there, stoned, speechless. I knew Duncan won't beat up somebody else just for some lame lame reason, but the evidence was there, he was already convicted before he could be charged!

Then I was reflecting at myself, what a brother I was. it was because of me that he's now so violent. The teacher even pointed out to us that he was physically very strong, and he even asked me whether he's stronger than me! LOL! Sad fact, he was.. But hey, 2 years back he would lose in a fist fight with me, not anymore, now he's outgrown those muscles on his arms, and now being in a fist fight with him is the last thing I wanna do.. But Duncan's not that kinda violent person, he's just lost and lonely. Mum and 2 other brothers, me and Derek, his closest family members, are all in Malaysia, and we visit him at most only once a month! I kept blaming myself, on how I used to bully my brother, so badly that sometimes he would be bleeding and bruising, but then again, regret isn't gonna help will it? So I'm having a resolution today, to counsel my brother all night..

LOL, were suppose to visit Singapore Flyer today, and it promises to be an amazing spectacle, a lot of pictures I'm gonna take for sure! But then my mood's been affected since morning? Can I overcome it? No choice! I'm in my hometown, how often do I get to be back here? And it costs $23.60 per pax! I did some research about this place, its the tallest observation wheel in the world, and it stands 165m from sea level. LOL! I can't wait for evening to come!

Stewart turning off into the Republic >>